Ok..

guess wat..today..i've never felt this alone before..i feel so alone..with an empty heart..haha..wth..here i am solving pple's relationship and love life problems wen i myself cannot solve mine..haha..wtf..

i juz don wan pple to get hurt and feel how i feel..it feels fucked to feel wat i feel...i juz wanna be there for them wen they need a fren the most..i'm like a psychologist or a psychiatrist...pple come looking for them and den they go..i noe mine's not like dat..i want to help them..be there and tell them dat evrytings gonna be ok no matter how stubborn pple's heart can be..to pick them up wen they're down..

but i'm falling deeper..deeper into despair..who is going to pull me from my hole of despair which are guarded by minions which have no feelings watsoever and wud push me deeper and deeper..damn..i hate feeling dis way..

Dis sucks..fucking sucks big time..how i wish life's a cartoon whereby i cud expect wat wud happen next..and i cud predict the future or sumting..wait long long la afi..haha!hahaha!!I'm good at picking myself up on my own..I'm good at calming myself down wen i'm feeling so hollow and sad..i guess all those training paid off..i maybe smiling..and laughing and roaring..but deep in the tangles and jungles of my empty heart..there lived a small boy who is on his knees crying..slowly the crying sound faded and faded in the eerie background of a solemn heart.

I need to listen to more old-school hardcore to get my emotions going...sadness is a part of life's emotions..but hollowness and emptiness??i don tink dats part of life too..or are they?

P.S: Can i luv u?