Bloody hell...y do i owaez hv to screw evryting up..Haiz...Y?now i'm driving pple away from me..Its no wonder i don hv many frens..Hahaha!I cud hear pple laughing at me..I am a loser..A dirty fucking loser..Yes..dats wat i am..Hahaha...i'm an asshole..dats great isn't it...Ahhh...fuck it..I'm sick of it all!Sick of having to go thru dis again..If dis is wat being 18 is abt den i'm sick...

Fucking hell...-=i'm on the verge of killing myself=-Someone pls hold on to me....



Ahoy there..I'm bored of my life..Y muz it be like dis?Fuck it..Tinking of dat someone alot..Didn't contact her 4 2 days...nvr mind..Hahaha!

To dat someone:Sorry if i cause ur hp ills to go thru the roof.Sorry if i irritate u alot.Didn't mean to.

School is starting soon...Real soon.hi stress!gdbye relax!L.O.V.E..Dis 4 letters are fucking irritating,annoying and sux!Sheeeesh!!!dats all.ciao!



Hey there...long itme nvr blog i noe..Benn bz la i guess.Lotsa tings are oging on in m ylife..and i dunno if its good or bad..Hell..i'm confused..Hahaha..wth?Turning 18 soon..Wats the big deal?Its juz 18...Hahaha!And i won't be celebrating it alone..Cuzins and family are celebrating wif me..But its not enuf...I need someone special to celebrate it wif me...I don cr how small it is...ANd for those who are planning a gift..Pls don make it big..and a wish is enuf for me..I don cr abt presents..And werking at stadium soon..haha!!Got a football game..And wif dat money..I'm gonna get myself a mcbeth shoe..yeehaaa!

all is well dat ends well i muz say....haha..k den..ciao!



Hey...long time nvr blog so here i go...





Hey...long time nvr blog so here i go...





Hey pple!!!I'm bored and penniless..aaaaargh!!Damnit...cannot go gig at gashaus today..nvd...And i'm the only one at home..coz my family went to Johor Bahru shopping and i will get a bag today!!OOOh yeah!!And my bro werk..so here i am alone on a rainy day..

oh yeah..I'm happy...so damn happy..haha!!Weee!!!noe y?Its no big deal really but i'm juz in contact wif a long lost fren whom i met at the senior spec course...Yeah..i noe..She's syad's fren...Haha..

Syad!haha...single for life babe!Let's flirt and grade girls la hor?

Her name's farhana...well she's hartbroken like me 2.....hope she's ok...Me?I'm fine pple..Although my heart is healing very slowly but i'm ok....Moving on is the best la rite?To hell wif the past and hello future..Dats my slogan.

3 days back,i told my bro abt our breakup and her..And i juz luv and respect la..I was hoping he will like freak out..but hell he didn't!Instead.......he looked at me and said"so juz fucking move on."He said dis words calmly..Hahaha!!I respect him for dat!

Y does it keep pouring dis dayzz...I juz hate the rain...haha!!Wateva..k den...till we meet again.



Hey...went to watch X GAMES at downtown east wif mu cuzins..and it was kinda ok lah..although i'm not into skateboarding dat much..

Told my cuzins abt my breakup and they were stunned..haha!Yep!The usual WTF and are u sure kind of look..Aidil said dat maybe she was msging him behind my back..who noes..I juz shrugged my shoulders and grinned and said.."at least i'm free from my worrisome world".Haha!!

And wilson...y u angry sia..i am like u sia..coz rmbr the time u told me u breakup wif ur ex and u said u feel free?Hahaha!!Well..i am u gay shit!Its over!!Woweeee!Rock on!

Getting a new bagpack and maybe la...maybe a mcbeth shoe..dunno yet..I hope i get it..But hell..A bagpack is good enuf for me..

OH YEAH..ME AND MY CUZINS DID A NEW VIDEO..CHECK IT OUT AT MY FRIENDSTER LINK..i'm the camera man so u wudn't see me in action..

So dats it den...I ciao first!



Hey pple..u noe..its kinda crazy but i smiled when i got out of bed..For no reason..WTH?hahaha!!Yesh pple..I'm back to myself again..Updated a new song for u guys.Its 'our' fave song last time..and i promised to put dis song on my blog if anyting goes wrong..so yep..i did..Listen to the lyrics carefully coz its a sad love story..

I'm back!Better then ever..Ciaozz!!























Hey...it was great at school..test was ok..Can make it..i guess...Looking forward to my cousins pit at east coast park..Yeah!!Rock on..Going jurong swimming dis wednesday wif my cuzins..Hahaha!!Its gonna be a blast..





hey pple!Didn't update yesterday coz i was busy at my gramps house wif my cuzins..Had lotsa fun!Cannot stop laughing my ass off wif them..Did some cleaning and helping with some stuff...Gramps was ok except for the wrinkles..

We slacked at the void deck at night and talked about ghosts ghost and more ghosts..It was creepy and scary..But i can take it..i guess..Got alotta pics taken and here's one of em..The rest is in my friendster..And got 2 videos uploaded..Check them out at friendster..Gotta study for test la..Ciaozzz

To my loved one...i apologise for the previous entry...it wasn't refering to u though..

Today was ok..especially wif katak and the gang...lotsa laughter.Holidays are coming and i will not sit back in my house..I'll go out evry now and then..Met Nalaka juz now to teach me some JAVA..I understand his teaching alot more than my own teacher..weird but thru...He said nxt term its gonna be freaking hard...And i was like WTF???hahaha!Yep!Brace urselfs C138..coz we're in for a bumpy ride nxt term...

Life has been a great pleasure to live....But wen the Powers Of Be snatched one of ur prozed possesion,u'll realised that u have done sumting wrong.Sinful..Hurtful things..Things dat u don realise that u did..Things dat u dn realise dat it hurts sum1..Don take ur loved one 4 granted...Coz the Powers Of Be can snatched them away for very fast dat u don hv time to blink..Mark my words and u'll be juz fine..

k den..till we meet again....Cheerios.



Someone once said to me dat boys are all the same.They will be good to u in the beginning and bad at the end..Hahaha...its orite.

pple learn from mistakes...chance is all dat matters.

She's changed.Changed so much.Even her attitude changed..Someone said dat she owaez angry at home for no reason..And owaez scolding dat sum1..Wat happened to the old u?This isn't u..Isn't u at all..Someone said she got mood swings often at home..OMG..i'm dissapointed in her..Really do..

-=families first..Then frens=-

Single life is grt..u noe....very great...Thx frens for supporting me..thx alot..Hols are coming...so is my b'dae...18 yrs..so wats the big deal?the only difference is i'll be celebrating it alone..Hope i'm not alone..Keep to my promises of not clubbing,smoking and drinking..Even though pple say i'm stupid and dumb..i dn cr..Promises are promises..

Wats love without hurt?That's wat my fren say..The only way to make ur love for sum1 grow is to quarrel wif them..Noe y?Coz wen 2 pple apologise,they will tend to luv each other more.Its true..It werks..But i guess it doesn't......Doesn;t work 4 my situation...

Waitng is wat i'm gd at..Let's wait 4 her shall i?

....................................Persevere AFI.Don u eva give up.........................................................
-=I luv u stil=-



Hey hey hey evrybody!!Hehehe!So happy today coz my teacher said i'm a good actor.haha!Today was ok coz there's the rain and its cold!And no more projects to hand in..I'm relaxing abit today.Didnt get enuf sleep.Got like lotsa projects to do during the hols like:
1.MMP storyboard
2.IDES website layout
3.JAVA assignment
4.CMSK report
5.DTAT logo

I tink dats about it..Oh..so happy today coz i didn't noe my smile can attract pple..Well,I smiled at my neighbour which is of my age and she smile back.Hahaha!Cool huh?But hell,i still will remain single...

And by the way, time doesn't determine our fate..Its God dat determines it..Got dat..k den..ciaozzz!



Hey!Today was a very very funny day..Lotsa a laughter todat..so i declare this day,"the laughing day".First was the skit..My frens were all acting funny and some of them can really be a comedian..Hahaha!Enjoyed their skit alot!

After school,i met katake,sulhi,zul.I was having a funtime laughing...lemme tell u y.Well..we finidhed playing cards and stack it up together to put into its casing..Then we counted and counted and there's only 51 cards wehn it shud hv 52.So Sulhi counted again..And its still 51..So we tried to find the missing card..but to no avail.We didn't see any card around..We searched for like 15 to 20 minutes..Zul was frustrated so he checked the card again and noe wat?That freaking card is sticked to one of the cards..WTF??We were like laughing our asses out..Its like awhile since i laughed like dat and it felt so good.Thx guys!



hEY there..today was ok..Wats not to be ok wen ur single rite?hahaha!!!Weeeeeeee!!!Back to my old self again..no more realtionships for me..ever..mayb i cud reconsider dat sentence..Fcuk it..let's tok abt school...It was great..alot of time constraints coz this week is our project submission week and i got alot of test coming up..actually only 2 la..hehe!

Oh yeah...Saw dis gerl looking at me juz now..Hahaha!!So happy!Who isn't happy??Oh!!And its gonna be christmas soon and my fren from Australia is coming down here..Yesh!!In sunny singapore!Yeah2!!Hope to meet her soon!Yahoo!!I hope i'm fully book for the holidays..2and a half wks of holiday..Dunno wat to do..Muz plan..and dat will come later..Muz study CMATHS and JAVA.Hope to go out wif my mates during the holidays!

Single life is great wen u hv a guitar..Noe y?U can learn alot of songs...i've learned songs like:

-say nothing at all-Ronan Keating

-almost all of secondhand serenade.

-Stand by me-Oasis

and more..haha!!



Hey ya!Today was really a bad day...Monday blues i wud say..First..i 4got to buy an envelope for my submission juz now..and a cd case..And i bought the wrong size envelope..How stupid can i get!!!Hahaha!!Then go buy again and dis time its damn big but wth..hehe!!Then juz now i open my blog to read my tagboard..i didn't noe the sound is loud..wen the webpg sets in, there was a loud song coming out of my com..So paiseh and malu!!I then put my hand together and said"sorry to evryone".The funny part is i was like praying rather then saying sorry...coz I heard Kaye said"Shafie..Praying will not do u any good!"Haha!!Funny sia..

Haiz..allowance finish ready..Coz i got to pay 4 my school stuff..U mite ask me y don want ask ur parents?I wud say"Don wanna burden them..They got alot of probs on their minds and i don wanna add prob 4 them...no money to eat..Its a gd ting its the holidays next wk..Guess hv to endure the food..Oh yeah..I got feel dis pain in my appendix area which is weird since i already got an apendicities operation..It comes and goes..hope its ok...Hehehe!!wth??No pain no gain rite..

Went over to Kevin hm to do project..I had a fun time there..Alot of laughter and some funny magic Kevin showed us.We also watched SAW 3 on his laptop..It was a great show but i cnt see the movie really well..

I decided to cancel the 3rd resolution dat is"find a new swithart".Noe y?Well hush hush..I got my reasons ok?Muahaha!!!

Juz now..on the way to school in the bus..I smell a familiar perfume..Its not perfum actually..its a shapoo smell.I noe i smelled it b4..Then i realised its her shampoo smell..Really reminded me of her alot on the way to school..Miz her lots..In school,i was so stressed up and gonna gv up coz i 4got to do dis and do dat..but den..like suddenly..I hear her voice in my head..her advice...Dn ever gv up..dats wat she say..From there i stood up and did wat i suposed to do..and then its done!!Weeeee!!!OMG!!!!Miz her lots..Hope she miz me too..k den..gdbye!

=-wish i cud hug sum1 now=-



Friendship and family is all thats left in my life..they really keep me going..Thx pple..Today was grt!Kenny,kevin and alaric came to my house to do project..We didn't do much except discussing poster...It was kinda great la..Hahaha!

For now...i'll juz be single juz like my old days..hahaha!!Luv my old days wen i'm single..yahoo!!!And i'll also wait 4 her if she still want me 2..and look out 4 a new swithart for me to share my feelings wif..and if i did find one..i'll be a changed person..

New year resolution:
1.License 4 motorcycle
2.wait 4 her
3.Study hard
4.Werk overseas
5.werk 4 money
6.make more frens

Dats all maties!!Ciaozzzzz!!



She wans it her way..so i gv it to her..Fine then..I'm sure other gals are more better than her..and i won't stop looking for one..Hahaha!!Mark my words....ciaoz..



OMG!!!PPLE OF THE WORLD...I miz her like crazy..hope she's fine...i'l wait dear..dn cr...gtg..ciao!



PPLE OF THE WORLD...I'M GONNA TELL U DAT DIS TING IS MY FAULT..READ DIS:

Its my fault..i oweaz benn playing wif her feelings..Owaez...And sumtimes wen i'm not angry she says i am..she is so sensitive about it..Wen i;m not angry she said i am..I'm sumtimes angry 4 no reason..Its called mood swings..And i'm not punctual wen meeting her..She's been too patient wif me..i noe she did..she's a very strong swithart..Dats wat make me luv her...One day..i asked if she can meet the nxt day..but she said she got stuff on..And i got pissed..Coz we didn't meet up 4 a long time..Den i told her dat things are not working out between us and i tell her to go our separate ways..she was pissed and said ok.now y?Coz i asked for break alot of times..and she was the one begging..She now tinks dat i'm using it for a threat against her..but i'm not..I'm juz abgry..Wen i'm angry..horrible tings come out..

Its my first time sia in a relationship...I dunno if i doing a rite thing..Atleast she got an ex b4 and got some experience..but not me..I don..Haiz..Its my fault guys..k?Don blame her..its my fault..goodnute..



Now..i'm calling her like umpteen of timesbut she wudn't answer me..I didn't she's like dis..Dunno she's dis ruthless to me..now i noe..haiz..help me sumbody..



Is she fair to me?I've tried so hard sia..I msged her..trying to be nice to her..bt she didn't reply...I asked her out but she's like avoiding me...Juz now i msged her she juz reply a word to evry question i asked her..She's like pulling my hart strings for her own thrill and watched happily as i become hurt..Oh God..I luv her soo much..

I've tried so hard..She's not fair to me..Haiz...Dear..mayb its hard for u..bt its harder 4 me u noe dat?Its so much harder..She's playing wif my feelings like wat i did to her last time..Now dat i choose to let her go..she start saying things dat make me think twice about 4getting her..Haiz..I really miz her...soo much..I duno wat else to do

I noe its my fault..I noe it is..I tried begging her to take me back..Begged her 4 like 1 hour or so..Msging and keep msging so dat she'll take me back..She juz stubborn and doesn't want it..I really wanna patch tings up wif her..haiz..I dunno wat else to do..



Hey ya!!Time to tok abt today..It was great!!Who go??Well me,katak,irsyad,Azliah,Ayu,Farhan,Linda and her bf Maxwell.Went to paragon at town to juz window shopping..Then we're off to far-east plaza.Surveyed the hoodies at this shop names "image 2001" and its settled..I wanna band hoody for my b'dae!!Hahaha!!After that we were bord so we went to esplanade to slack and to wait for this ska band named "Comic strip" to perform..The vocalist is hot!!ANd her voice is really nice!!I wish i cud have her singing to me in my slip..Then met up wif asyron and shireen.

From there we proceed on to downtown east for dinner which is fun!Had nasi lemak there..Met up wif Shaz and Ayied..Then its home for me..it was great!!I hope we can go out like dis again..My mind is really off her..She's nuting to me now except mayb a fren..haha!!Wth??

Help him!His head is stuck in there!

Smile!

Frens 4 eva!Muahaha!

Oi..why u look there?

Switharts.

Oi..wat u looking at?

Hahaha!!Cannot wait to be 18 years old..Muahaha!If u noe wat i mean..


Wah!This guy is so handsome..:p

So yeah..I guess pictures tell a thousand words..So i have fun!!Thx guys!!Thats all..gtg..Bye!!



Hey ya!!!Today was super duper great!!!But lets talk abt yesterday at the jam and hop..Hahaha!!It was awesome!!!The gig was ok la...but kinda boring coz cannot mosh..Me and katak were in the mood to mosh..but then...hahaha!!But we did mosh abit...to the Bonjovi song..Its my life..it was great!Hahaha!!Then my frens and i were like dancing..At first i don wanna dance..coz its not me dancing..But then i juz enjoyed..But didn't grind la...coz i don't like it..it was great..My frens taught me how to dance..hahaha!!!It was great!!Really get my mind of tings..But damn..No pic to show u guys..hahaha!!Nvd..

Ouh...Juz tot and tot and tot.Talked to my so called sis yesterday..And she asked me to let go of her..I said no bcoz i tot i gt a chance..But then...I msged her juz now..Hoping she wud be cheerful wen msging me..but she acted cold towards me..Her replies are only word..no sentence..From there i decided to let her go..Sori guys...Thx 4 the support by the way..But she rilly don want me back..so yeah...I noe i'll find sum1 better..hahaha!!Wish me luck k?

And pple...Wen i'm 18 pls pls pls don tok to me abt clubbing..I noe i danced at jam and hop..BUT...i don like to club..hear me??I hate it..Its not me..Gigs are ok..bt nt club..Thx..Gtg..ciao!!



The lyrics of my song named: I'll wait(Not the title goodbye anymore)





Oh...hey...i'm fine...managed to drag to school...Ot was a long dat today....I enjoyed myself toking to frens and laughing and their lame old jokes...Finally finish my proposal...dats the least of my worries..There's alot more stuff coming up...Tmr if possible,my frens and i going to dunno where...juz to go out..My sec frens already noe abt us...They wanna take me out to get my mind of her...

Heard she went out yesterday night...She's like a machine...Came back from school at 6 pm and went out again..See how much freedom she has?But she's still complaining....I hope ur happy now wif ue new freedom..U said to me dat freedom isn't anyting bt look at u now..

Haiz..it seems dat she's enjoying herself...she really am...Me?I'm not enjoying myself..My tots are owaez on her...toked to her sister juz now and she said sumting bad dat really make me depressed and down..She said i shouldn't have high hopes for her taking me back..I was demoralised..But i noe dat had to be said..I told her sis dat she won't be single for long....Soon she will find a perfect match 4 herself....Bt nvm..I'll still wait 4 her....

I used to be the second person in her life..Her first was family..Dat i can understand..But now i'm the last..I'm like a leftover food waiting to be devoured by birds...bt i dn cr..coz i'll still wait..Miz her actually..

A message to her: U can pull my heart strings for your thrill but i noe i'll be ok....U can play wif my feelings like i did to urs but i still won't buldge..I won't...I'll wait 4 u...dn cr wat other pple say..Say wat they want..They will only bring me down but i'll live..I luv u..I really do..I hope u luv me 2...

Will she take me back?I wonder..coz on wednesday night we msg each other..She said she is not forcing to feel happy of being single bt she juz feel it coming automatically..In other words she is trying to say dat all her luv 4 me is lost..Buried in the shadows where only ghost could devour on.. Haiz...dats all..gdbye!